Who Are You?

It’s not only a hit song from the Who that I used to use as a ring tone for unknown callers, but it’s also one of the hardest questions anyone can ask you. Who are you? Who am I? It really makes you stop and take pause and really think about yourself.

Recently I’ve been reading on having identity issues and how your job or what you do, shouldn’t really define who you are.

This is a hard one for me because I’m not sure how to separate what I do from who I am.

I identified as a single mom for 23 years and then my son grew up and moved away to another country and it left me alone and thinking that now that part of my life has changed, where does it leave me? Who am I now? I am still and will always be my son’s mother, but it’s not in the forefront of my life at this moment in time.

I work at a job that sometimes I enjoy and sometimes I don’t and I work a lot of hours. Roughly 50 a week, I spend more time at my job and with my co-workers than I do at home.

I hear often that you should live each day as if it were your last and that you should look at what you’re planning to do today and think if this was your last day here is this what you would want to be doing. My answer would be a really big “No!” I do, like everyone else, have bills to pay though. So lazing on a beach somewhere isn’t going to get the bills paid. At some point you do have responsibilities that you have to take care of and it can't be all about play or can it? Can it be both?

Am I my age? I’m 46. I’m not sure what people that are 46 are supposed to be doing? Anyone else around this age and what do you do with yourself? Am I my social status?

I am single and have been for at least 5 or 6 years. What do single people of a certain age do with themselves? When they are not at work?

I am a woman. I am somewhat a bit of a tomboy also. Do these labels define me as a person though?

I am straight. Does my sexual orientation define me as a person?

I am a fangirl (or fanwoman?), my most recent TV Show loves are Supernatural and Wynonna Earp. Who doesn’t love Doc Holiday or the Winchesters? I do love TV and Movies and am recently getting back into the Convention world for comic books, TV shows and movies. I’m heading to my first con since DragonCon in 2011. It will be local and I’ve got my ticket to have a photo op with Michael Rooker from The Walking Dead and Guardians of the Galaxy. I’m actually kind of excited about going and being with so many people that enjoy the same things I do. Does this define me though? Have I finally found my hobby that I’ve been searching for for so long? My passion? Hard to say really but I hope so. I feel good about it so I will have to see how I feel when I am done.

I enjoy music almost all kinds and enjoy going to concerts. Does this define me? My musical tastes or the concerts I’ve been to?

I have pets, 2 cattle dogs, 7 cats and 6 chickens. Do these things define me?

All of these things are things I do or have or enjoy but do they make up who I am? Or am I something else, something more?

I am hoping to explore all of these things as I go about my days and start really getting into this journal. I hope you enjoy what I have to say and stick around to take this journey with me and maybe share some of your own.

Thanks for reading!